Friday, January 11, 2013
Follow Jesus Series
The message really impacted me as Mark talked about that there is no difference between being a Christian and being a Disciple; Christ never meant for their to be a division between those two words. At the end of Mark's message we transitioned into a time of communion. At that point Mark asked us to take a few minutes to think about what is in our life that is holding us back from being a Disciple.
To be completely honest, when those times arise, I normally pray for people in our church that God would speak to them. But this Sunday I didn't do that. I asked God what was holding me back from being a Disciple. To that I felt God speak four things to me and then I asked Him to repeat them so I could remember them by using my fingers to mark a point. Well when I did that I only got three things that I need to work on and here they are:
1. Watch less TV
Believe it or not this is a problem for me. I love watching: Gold Rush, Parks and Rec, American Hoggers, Survivor, Duck Dynasty, Storage Wars, Football, The Office, Parenthood, Alaska the Last Frontier, Up All Night, Yukon Men and probably more! I can sit in front of the TV for hours and just love it. It allows me to veg and not engage life.
The truth is I can't live like that anyone. I need to be engaged in life which I think leads well into the next thing I am going to work on this year.
2. Be present
I have struggled with this for years and have written about it before. Once, while meeting with my counselor, this topic came up. We talked about how I have the personality type that can always think ahead and miss out on today. She encouraged me (warned me) that this will be something that I will have to fight against in my life; she wasn't kidding. I have to fight to be present. I can day dream in conversations, think about other things and turn the conversation to what I want to talk about.
This year I am going to FIGHT to be present more often; especially with my kids.
3. Be a better parent
Its tough to admit but I don't think I am the best dad. I think I am good dad but I think I could do better. For most of my children's life I was in seminary. While in seminary I was able to skip out on dad duties in the name of conquering school. Well the truth is that school is done. I don't have an excuse anymore to be a disengaged parent. I have written papers on how to be an involved parent so I am going to go back and take my own advice on what I need to do.
I am not writing any of this to show how Godly I am. In fact it may be the opposite. I am writing this because I need prayer. I want to be a better dad. I want to be more present in situations. I need prayer. I need others to come alongside me to help me be the man that I think God desires for me to be.
If you want you can watch the message that Mark preached here on Vimeo.