Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Finding Value in my Grade

I'm not sure if you struggle with the same insecurities that I struggle with but you may struggle with this one.  See I struggle with finding value in my grade.  I didn't realize this until recently but it became extremely evident to me that when I get a bad grade in seminary, or school in general, I get frustrated.  This last summer I took a course called "God in Science and Scripture".  In that course I was asked to write a final paper.  Through a random series of events I found out that I got a "C" for the final grade of my course.  Now I could vent about the circumstances that lead to that grade but its in black ink already so its pointless.

After receiving the "C" letter grade I found out that I was super bummed on the grade.  I felt like I had put so much effort into the course but obviously didn't learn the requirements for passing the course with a better grade (random side note: a "C" is passing).  Last summer I learned that for so long in my life I have found my value in a grade.  I find my value in acceptance from others and that is a tough place to wrestle with.

Since getting that grade I have done my best to find my value in Christ.  I most of the verses; I have heard the sermons... shoot I have preached the sermons but God brought me to a place in life where I had to find my value in him and not in a prof that I will most likely not see again until heaven.

I want to leave you with two questions to ask yourself:

  • What is there in your life, today, that is holding you back from finding your value in Christ?  
  • What is getting in your way from really becoming the person that God is asking you to be?

2 comments:

Nick Ristow said...

I'm with you man... that class was the first and only "C" i have gotten in seminary, I found myself frustrated and making excuses about it... Thank God His love is not based on GPA.

Neal C Benson said...

Nick,
Hey bro I feel ya. I was so mad (and still need to get over it).
Can't wait to see you in a few weeks at Tozer