I am currently enrolled in two courses in seminary and it just was proving to be too much to handle in my life. I found myself stressing on school work. I was being short with my wife. I wasn't spending time with my kids and this was just the beginning of it!
- Thursday night I was up till about 11:30pm reading a book that I thought didn't have to be read for another week.
- The next morning I was so tired I didn't spend anytime with Jesus (it shows in my attitude when that happens).
- All that day on Friday I was short with my wife and kids.
- I was tired and exhausted from the long hours I had put into school that week.
- I knew that night I wasn't going to be able to spend anytime with Charity because I had to finish the book and start writing a 10 page paper.
- I was not excited.
I began to process how long I had been working on seminary and doing a cost to benefit ratio.
The cost is high! Seminary takes a good deal of my time that I could spend with my wife, my kids and my friends. The benefit will be high when the degree is complete but the immediate tells me that it is not finished. I started thinking about have I been working on this degree since September 2004. Ya I took an eighteen month break to come serve at South Hills so I have been working on it straight since March 2006. I have put countless hours into learning: Greek, Hebrew, New Testament, Theology, Practical Ministry Courses and thinking through Church Leadership. That is when I realized that I am done and I did it.
Friday night I was living in the immediate and that is when I quit seminary.
I woke up Saturday morning and I was comfortable with my decision to quit seminary. I know that I only have four courses left (two after I complete the ones for summer) but I decided it was time to quit. I didn't tell anyone about the choice to quit. I didn't do any homework all day on Saturday or Sunday.
Monday came around and I was feeling much better. I spent some time reading in the morning, took a break to be with the family and finished my paper Monday night. I was thankful that I didn't tell anyone I had quit seminary. As much as I am frustrated with seminary I know that I only have four courses left and I would kick myself if I really quit. So I am still on track to finish in Spring 2012 and I will have my Masters Degree!